I could have told you this

Oddly Enough

Basically if you drink whiskey you can avoid Swine flu... So all this worry over the kids going back to school has now been solved.

School Shopping supplies as follows...

Notebook

Pencils

Crayons

one shot bottle of Jack

Backpack

Glue

GermX

Calculator

and whatever else your teacher may ask for...

Plus the kids come home and want to pass out. Just have to watch out for those nasty headaches in the morning. Nothing the next shot of Jack can't fix..right?

Once again Alcohol solves the problem!

I know things are bad But....WOW

Michigan has had the shit kicked out of us in the past 10 months or longer..but nationally known about 10 months so I can totally see THIS happening. It is that bad here even Reuters has an article today about Pontiac (the city) struggling. My brother worked in that plant and my husband drives a truck made from that plant. So this sucks..I know, we are all dealing with this shit... but go smoke one or something... because trust me your wife/husband is not going to be convinced that this is "saving your Marriage" nor will it be "cheaper than divorce" LOL cuz you'll be paying for both!

I love hearing how it's "helping" their marriage and how he ain't gettin none...yadda, yadda...What ever makes you feel better, Dude..you are still cheating and you will still eventually get caught or end up w/ a disease or for the women in this article...murderd...take your pick. The excuses are great in this article though like this time, using this site, it is now Okay to cheat...LOVE IT!!!

Domestically Disabled..oh today is Shane's 7th Birthday

Yeah I'll do anything for my kids apparently..LOL. Lets get things straight here...I don't cook (well), I don't bake (ever), I have made only one set of cupcakes (ever) and below is my first cake (EVER). I am completely domesically disabled and I am okay with this. My husband may not be but tough shit he married me like this. I mean everything too...I can keep the house clean but not organized. I frigging HATE dishes..the kitchen pretty much is the worst place in the house in my opinion. I hate laundry..I'll wash it, fine but I have a basket full of socks (go pick out two that match) and the rest of the laundry is right now on my livingroom chair. Yeah I know this sounds bad and I do eventually get to folding and putting it all away (at least the kids) ours ends up on the stairs or next to our closets LOL. I don't even make Beds...WHY when your just gonna climb back in the damn thing..A waste of time I could be doing other things..like serching for my Smutty Twilight FanFic!! Priorities PEOPLE!!

In my house I fix things or put things together (except the car, boiler, garbage disposal..to many horror movies there... or the lawn mower) while my husband cooks and does the dishes. So when my middle son, Shane says he wants a cake that looks like Zach Wylde's guitar ---> of course I said sure I could make that happen for him. Now in my mind I was going to have some one else make this cake..really anyone beside me would do for this job. I know a few people who make really awesome cakes, Well this weekend came and I realized I did not have someone to do this by TODAY! So here I am this morning covered w/ white and chocolate frosting trying to make this thing...could you imagine if I did not have a guitar pan *giggles* it would not have happened period! So this is what I got. I am just happy it seems to be eatable :O)

So Happy 7th Birthday to my Son Shane...which BTW I should be given a gift for since I was the one doing the work 7 years ago..instead my little ungrateful child gets a new guitar...See where I rate here!!! Sucker that I am though is very happy that he will be happy today!

Latest Obsession

So yeah I am one of those who got completely hooked on Twilight and Love sparkly Edward and all that Jazz... but rereading the books were not quenching the need to this obsession. So thanks to another blogger I am came across hot smutty twilight fanfic!!

So today I have decided to share my list of Fanfic. Some are great but unfinished others are okay but totally satisfying :O)

enjoy!

So I am going to start with my FAV!!

This still Edward and Bella but no Vampires....you will never look at cookies and unicorns the same way again!! We are waiting for the last chapter though!
Wide Awake

This one is just HOT. No Vampires again and also unfinished..but really worth the wait!
The Office

The rest of these are just random that I have read..not necessarily the best but who cares we got addicted to teenage sparkly vampire books..don't judge!!

Only Human

Eternal Dawn

Dark Side of the Moon

Sacrifices

De Anima

Resisting Edward & Seducing Edward

Please feel free to recommend some more!!

Oh kirmy

Okay, Okay, So I know the whole swine flu thing has been played out...but come on this shit is funny!!

I am sure he would...

see more Lol Celebs

Yeah Michigan has on 2 confirmed cases but yet we have 13 closed schools..I say toughenthefuckupandgotoschool but what do I know.

Where are my Meds?!?!

Seriously... I am going to be back on the Prozac before long. I was doing SO good to. Really though, how much more are we supposed to take?

Detroit..So worried for pretty much everyone I know...

Swine flu...Pretty soon I will not be leaving my house...funny thing is I am taking Ava with me on Shane's field trip to the Detroit Zoo tomorrow..I don't think they have pigs there though? Lots of people especially kids...yep now I fear kids and Pigs

Oprah..yeah she had this friggin special on, I think, Tuesday, about flesh eating bacteria and fun stuff like that...So basically if I take my kid in to get antibiotics for things like lets say an Ear infection (both Shane and Ava have BTW) the One antibiotic could potentially kill the good bacteria and not the deadly ones because you will need a second one for that...or what ever... Point is do I chance taking my kids to the doctor at all because...

a. they could catch the swine flu..

b. getting antibiotics for an ear infection could cause death..

c. I live in friggin Detroit and can't afford the co-pay..I am lucky to have insurance ..I KNOW!

Right, they will be fine...

Oh yeah and what sealed the deal for me to get back on my pills was sometime last week, one of the many nights I was up with Ava in the middle of the night, (Bryan went to the couch) I was sitting up rocking Ava so I put the history channel on...BIG Mistake!! It was about the Mayan prediction of the world ending in 2012...yep...No I did not sleep much that night. All I could do was panic..thinking I should be warning people. It was 3 am people I was not all that with it and the night does funny things to my brain.

So yeah my anxiety has shot though the roof in the past week to the point where I might carry around a brown paper bag with me at all times.

Random Stuff...

Turn off Music... Go to bottom of the page and press the stop or pause button. I don't remember my password to stop it for you sorry :/

Check this out its too Cute!!!

This was done in October. I have been meaning to put it all together and just got around to it.

In other News. Keegan's debut in the East China Production of Annie will be Thursday March 12 and Friday March 13 at 7pm. There are day time shows but they are already sold out.

PLEASE pray for my kids school ( Washington Elementary). We find out tonight if our school will be recommended to stay open or not. I have been praying every chance I get.

Shane is still doing remarkably well at anything musical. My cousin Laurens 9th birthday was last Weekend and she has a xylophone and Shane just started busting out "Though the Fire and the flames" (dragon force) and "Sweet Child o Mine" LOL. Not only that but his is quickly learning notes and beats and tab is a breeze for him.

Ava sings all day long..either Paramore, womanizer (lol) or Annie tunes..So funny.

We got a new water heater..A great deal too off of Craig's list. So nice to have hot water again.

I think that is about it here... hope everyone Is happy and healthy!!

Love Jax

Lesson Learned

I am never sure how to title these. Ava was pretty sick this week. I woke up Monday morning at 6am to Ava throwing up. Which is nothing out of the ordinary when you have kids and was a bit over due in my house hold. My poor baby though was throwing up every 10 to 15 min, so much so that I was feeding her water by the end of the day just to give her something to throw up. Keegan and Shane, of course, have winter break and they are home from school through all of this. I had to keep her quarantined to her room So the boys would not get this too. This continues though the night and is now every half hour at best. Tuesday Morning I can tell that she is dehydrated and there is nothing I can do for her. If she can't keep even a drop of water in her then I knew she would be hospitalized. So I waited till the docs opened and took her in. I knew I was going to the hospital before I even called the docs So I knew I had to do something w/ the boys.









I have to say that I have the most awesome network of friends around me. I am so fully blessed w/ the best friends and community that I could have asked for. After calling Shannon (who was sick but still would have taken the boys) I asked Dawn to take the boys and even though she had plans for her daughter that day, she canceled them for us. Then While I was in the waiting for the doctor to come back and tell me what hospital I am going to be admitted to, Debbie calls me. Her boys are my Boys best friends. John and Keegan have been inseparable since Kindergarten and Stephen and Shane have the same class this year and of course know each other well and are really close. So when she called she was asking to take the boys for the day to play. Actually she was calling to ask to take all 3 of my children because she also has a daughter, Gabrielle, who is a year or 2 older than Ava. So I decided that the boys would be much happier for a long length of time w/ Debbie. I know they were having a great time at Dawns but Dawn has a 1 y/o and has her hands full there and a 6 y/o girl so I knew they would be bored by the end of the day. Because I live in a small town, they all know each other. So Debbie went over to Dawns and got my boys and even took her Daughter for the day to play!! These are all the most awesome women I have ever met in my life!! Debbie also offered to go get over night cloths for the boys from my house...but honestly I wanted an excuse to leave the hospital when Bryan could relieve me So I told her I would drop them off later. I also had pictures to take at ITS at 5pm.









Back to Ava. She was Admitted to Port Huron Hospital because River District was full. We were in pediatrics and we had our own room (she was contagious apparently though none of the rest of us got sick). She had an IV put in and did awesome there...she did not even flinch. I should should really not be surprised...this is the same kid who had her collar bone broken last summer and had Doctors and everyone pushing on it and made no show of pain at all!! My tough chick :O) I figured that this would only be an over night stay and would be released in the morning. If you have kids you also know this Murphy's law..as soon as you take them in w/ something you think is serious they all of a sudden are better. Which was sort of her case. She stopped throwing up at 9 am ( we were in the Doctor office by 9:30) and we were admitted to the hospital and in our room by 11:30. She still had not thrown up in that time frame So I am thinking that she will be out by morning and that I was over reacting and could have made her better at home by myself. Well thankfully I did take her in cuz everything started again at around 2pm and she could not keep even ice chips down. Bryan got to the Hospital around 3 0r 4 ( he took off after lunch) and I went home to get a change of cloth for me and to drop off to the boys w/ their backpacks cuz they were going to school from Debbie's (winter break is over...hope they had fun). I also had to stop by ITS and then get myself something to eat. The people at ITS are another part of my community that I cherish. They were very concerned and all offered to help if they could. I hope they know and understand how much I honestly appreciate that kind of support!! I am one lucky woman!









Wednesday I was sure I would have gone home if you asked me in the morning. After getting up every hour to take Ava and her friend Charlie (the IV cart thingy) to the bathroom she seemed to be getting better. But about noon she started to finally run a fever... The doctor said she could go home after dinner if she kept dinner down...you guessed it She didn't. *sigh* I about cried when she threw up her 1 bite of chicken and 2 bites of apple sauce. She had been holding down pop sickles, water and pop all day. Plus she has some dry Cheerios and a bite a toast from lunch in her. Both of us just wanted to go HOME!! I missed my boys and wanted to know how they were So Bryan decided to take the morning off to get the boys off to school then go to work So they could sleep in their own bed and to give poor Debbie a break. She took the boys to school and picked them up from school, gave them dinner and even showers (which they BADLY needed). I went and got the boys at 8pm from Debbie and took them to the hospital so Bryan could take them home and I could have a few moments w/ them even if it was just a half hour car ride.









We had an uneventful night..She slept pretty much though w/ one nasty #2 interruption. So now it has stopped coming out one end only to be going out the other...YAY fun times. Her fever is still going on too. But Thursday Morning she is eating great and even kept Lunch down So the doctor Said we can go HOME!!! We were out of there by 10:30am... OH but here is the kicker









When I woke up on Thursday (yesterday) It was snowing and My windshield wipers are broken and we have not had a chance to fix it yet...So I am freaking out on how the heck am I supposed to get home and I get a text from Bryan .... He is broke down...WTF!!! I mean really...what the hell did we do wrong. Karma is getting us for something.









His Truck needs a fuel pump (which will cast about $350 him doing it himself) and is towed home...and it stopped snowing in Port Huron but the nurses have over heard me and now wont let me leave unless they know I have ride home. Shannon picked up Bryan (so he could get the Van) to come and get us. Knowing that they were on the way was apparently enough for the nurses so they let us go..Had I known that they would let me leave w/ out physical proof I would have lied..I knew I could make it home. So when I got to the parking lot I called Bryan and Shannon and told them to turn around. I made it home fine ..though I will admit I was a little nervous cuz when I hit Belle River road (2 min from my house) Mother nature acted up again and the road was covered w/ snow and it was a white out..LOVELY!!! but I made it home. All is right w/ the world when we are all again under one roof!














Friday..Today.. I am car-less and whatever.. seriously..WHATEVER. My daughter is fine, my boys are at school and healthy as well. We do have 1 car to get Bryan to work and I had nothing planed for today anyhow. Last week I was all mad about stupid things..wishing Bryan would appreciate me more, wanting more than I should, really..not being grateful for what I have and every time I get like that things like this happen. I know God was up there saying "okay fine you don't want to make dinner again another day and want a break..I'll give you a few free meals...In the Hospital..then see how you feel...Oh and you think your bed sucks well then here sleep in this broken recliner for a few nights then tell me how you feel!" And I am pretty sure Bryan appreciates me now LOL..We both really appreciate each other and our Bed LOL. I needed a Swift kick in the butt and I do every now and then to make me realize I am very blessed. I was able to pay my mortgage yesterday when I have friends who are loosing their houses. My husband is able to get to his job when I have people I love and care about loosing their jobs or have lost them and now can't find another one. My heart breaks for them and I know better than to take all that I have for granted. So for this week I am thankful. I realize that I have wonderful friends and Family ( whom I should have mentioned...My mom called me everyday was was my mental support...my brother would have drove more than and hour to come and stay the night just to get my boys on the bus in the morning and Bryan's Brother called the hospital to check up on Ava...even my Grandpa called me), I have a home and at least one car, Bryan has a job and we are all healthy. I have a wonderful husband who I know loves me! I have nothing to bitch about!!!




Well if you got though all that...then you mean as much to me as everyone I mentioned as well..cuz you care :O)




Love you all




Jax

Shane blows us away!

His punishment for something I can't even remember now was to take away all video games..including Guitar Hero. He could not even go to you tube and watch other people playing guitar hero and pretend. Yes he does that..weird I know but he will type in Though the fire and the flames, Dragon Force, guitar hero on you Tube and memorize how other people played it and play along so he could play in on expert. He does this w/ anything he is completely interested in, Ninja stuff, skateboarding, snowboarding..some stupid gummy bear song and so on. So anyway he was not allowed to do this..This was the week of Jan 12th. I told him to concentrate on the real guitar to get his fix..cuz he was honestly interested in the guitar but would never take the time to really learn or practice..well because of guitar hero, video games and the computer, for 1 week. By the end of that week he had Happy birthday memorized and he held his hands and fingers as if he'd been playing for over 6 months. He did not even have to look where he was picking. I think Guitar hero did help here because he has awesome control with his pinkie. He also could play a few other riffs here and there too from sweet child o mine to I kissed a girl. He soaks up the guitar like it is another limb or something. I have never seen this kind of talent for guitar ever. It runs though his blood though..excessively. My dad played guitar and was naturally awesome, Bryan is also naturally gifted at guitar too. My brother also plays guitar. I have always wanted to but never took the time to learn. I am still sad over that. But oh well. I wonder if my dad had this same natural talent or if he had to work at it. I also wonder how old he was when he picked it up. hhhhmmm

So any way this is my 6 year old Shane at only 3 weeks of really playing guitar..no lessons other than dad.

Jax

Time to update

I guess I need to update..and Maybe make it a more regular thing *shrug*..in my spare time :O)
So Christmas is over...thankfully *sigh*..I really wish I did not feel like that. It is just the stress of it all that I hate. This year brought on a whole new stress. The fact that we had to cut back more than ever before, that I could not give all that I wanted to..that I received much more than I feel that I deserved. My kids though, had a wonderful year due to every ones generosity. My grandparents gave us enough that we were able to give our kids a lot. They got the wii. Which is for all of us :O) Keegan got an ipod, Shane a remote control motorcycle thing he wanted and Ava lots of random pink things :O) Bryan gave me a new phone..which I love but wish he would not do that knowing that we are so broke and of course I could not return the favor. I also got the twilight CD.

Twilight..I am obsessed, it is sad I know. I think I am more obsessed w/ Paramore. The thing is Bryan brought home their RIOT CD sometime last summer but forgot to listen to it..I am so mad it took me this long to really get into them. I love Decode and I caught myself off the Twilight CD..they both just go so well w/ my Twilight obsession. There is really nothing more to say here (hanging my head in shame) LOL

Keegan's Birthday is the 24th..party too. I have a hard time wrapping my head around the fact that I have a nine year old. Life is just going by to quickly when I look at him. He recently got a part in the Annie jr. production for our school district. He is an announcer and part of the chorus. I am really proud of him. He also has his red belt. He is into Magic and spy stuff. He is a funny kid.

Shane is a funny kid too. He is all into Ninjas and still guitar hero. He has beat 37 songs of 42 on expert. He is only 6. Nor does he spend a lot of time playing it So I am really unsure how he is that good. He is doing wonderfully in school..he is now reading and is exceptional at math. I am very proud of my boys. They both are exceptionally smart and have lots of talents. Shane can hear music better than anyone I have ever seen. If he does not play an instrument it will be a real waste. He can turn anything into an instrument and make real song out of it. It is honestly crazy. Blows even Bryan away.

I do have a pretty big head when it comes to my family. There are so many possibilities of talent in my boys and they have so many influences to work from. Bryan plays guitar and music is a huge center of our family. There is always music playing in the background of my house. Even Ava is not tone def by any means and Loves music and will ask to listen to things..like paramore... that she loves. Shane is so blatantly good at all things musically. If he would put in the effort to play guitar..he could and easily. He can play a few songs. Then w/ Keegan his dad is a wonderful artist..he draws cartoons for the most but very talented. Then his natural abilities that come from no where.. or maybe my love for reading I don't know. But he can write the best stories that I have ever seen in a 6-9 year old... he has been writing them since he could write. He has a love for all things scary as did me and my dad..so funny how I can see so much of myself in him..even the bad parts.. like anxiety. He even bites his nails. My doing photography and computer graphics of course gives them a lot of computer hands on, all three would blow you away w/ their knowledge of computers. But that is more the age they are growing up in. The boys have a summer obsession of Skateboarding and a winter obsession of snowboarding..they are not all that great at either but their determination really does surprise me.

Then there is Ava and she loves of all things pink LOL and sparkly. She is a ball of trouble. She at the wonderful terrible 3 age, getting to everything she can reach..or even figuring out how to get the things she can't. She is a great kid though and I love her so much. She is very loving, especially to her daddy..lol..I am a little jealous there cuz I know he is in love w/ her just as strongly. I never thought a mothers love could ever have competition until you see the daddy daughter love between them. She is in preschool too. She goes on Mondays and Wednesday to a preschool I don't really care for. Does not seem worth the money and if it was not purely selfish I would not take her at all. But I really do cherish the 4 hours a week to myself. it has been 9 years of waiting for alone time and well.. I think I deserve it. This attitude is why I know I am done w/ having kids.

I feel no longing to have another child. I don't feel like my life is missing anything but who I used to be honestly. I long to have myself back. I am finding myself again too its been great!! I remember the stuff I like.. I know the stuff I like now. I remember my uniqueness that I forgot trying to be a mom and fit in and be normal...but I am far from it. It is scaring my husband though.. I don't think he has ever really liked my goofy way of dressing and my wild hair colors. I told him I want to die my hair crimson red or at least w/ streaks..he frowned..LOL so I am struggling w/ my need to please him and my new found need to be me. Unfortunately I realize my age is against me too. The style I love is probably to young for me and I am sure that I will just look like a mom who is dressing to young. But damn it I was dressing this way long before it was in style.. doesn't that count. I also hope that I don't push Bryan away by me being me. He knows that I am ..uummm...colorful and he has never liked it. He hated my recent bangs phase.. and I of course got rid of them. *sigh* but he is the only one I care to please besides myself so I am struggling w/ how much it really matters to me. Which matters more?, being the sexy woman he wants me to be or just being myself for me..
And on that note I think I am done for now. I have to go and clean. Love you all
Jax

Pictures...

Kids Christmas pictures


Angelic Ava


The love of my life


Grampa and Shane


Shane Grampa and Keegan


Ava and her protector Ginny


Me and My baby girl