Walking Contradiction
I must really put on a good front for people. Maybe I should just show people exactly who I am… You know the Lazy, procrastinating, slob,… that way I am not asked to do another f-ing thing. I could say no but I guess I am afraid if I have nothing to do I really will do nothing (not that I’d mind) but my husband and children like food and clean cloths…so I’ve heard…over and over and over again! So I keep myself busy with responsibilities that people ask of me So I am forced to get dressed and move. The problem lies not only with the above but with the fact and When I say I am going to so something I stress and over think everything and want to do my best because the results will NOT make me look bad. Also coupled with the fact that I am so unorganized that my friends have to let me in on my own schedule once in a while. I am a walking contradiction. Whats worse is I know this and it would be awful if I was not needed..I strangely like to be needed.. until I am actually needed..WTF oh and I have few control issues but I am totally fine letting others be in charge only so I am not the one to screw up. See what I mean? I am done now. I have to stop procrastinating and clean my messy house and should probably get dressed because I am directing a district play this afternoon and have some business calls to make as well. o.0
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